Lyrics

I haven't been kind lately
I've mostly been tired
At least that's my excuse lately
For harsh words and hard lines

I haven't been kind lately
Sometimes I'm even cruel
I just haven't had time lately
To do more than make it through

And I haven't been looking up at the big blue sky
And seeing sunshine after the rain
I've only seen clouds lately
I've only seen gray

I haven't been honest lately
It feels much easier to lie
I do my best to keep smiling for you
Pretend that everything is fine

I haven't been myself lately
I feel somewhere far away
Been living like a ghost or a shadow
Trying to hide from all this pain

And I haven't been looking up at the big blue sky
And seeing sunshine after the rain
I've only seen clouds lately
I've only seen gray

I used to think of myself as someone
Who always tried to find the light in the dark
But believe me this world's got me down
I'm falling apart

I haven't been kind lately
Some days I barely feel alive
Everything's just so heavy lately
All I do is survive

I haven't been kind lately
I've mostly been afraid
Afraid to face all my anger and longing
Afraid I don't know how to change

And I haven't been looking up at the big blue sky
And seeing sunshine after the rain
I've only seen clouds lately, I’ve mostly been tired lately
I haven't been kind lately, but I'm trying to be brave